Wednesday, June 1, 2011

June! Running!

I cant believe its June..............June means my baby turns one, and my wedding is in a month, and holy crap how has it been a year since I had her?!?!?!

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As you saw in my last post that I have anxiety and I have depression. Its really hard sometimes but some days I feel great:) Like today I feel great! I talked to Caleb about how I was feeling last night and I think that made me feel better. I try not to talk to him about it because I don't want to worry him and I don't want him to think I am nuts since he has never dealt with depression. So to deal with the days that are not as good as today I am going to take up running! I have heard that exercise is like an antidepressant, oh ya I am really sensitive to medications the last few I have tried have made me MORE depressed and I just cant afford to try that again. I have a baby who needs me to be happy and if I take the meds and they make me worse that is a month where I am off my game and I don't want that for her. So I am going to start off walking for now and work my way to running! I cant wait and I want to be in shape!